Post 40!

Yay! *pats self on back* I've managed to stay commited to this blog! And on top of that I had a remotely good day... sorta. I'll even manage to fit all the bad stuff in this opening paragraph thingy, just for your viewing pleasure. My comma key broke when I tried to fix it. Wondering how I'm about to do this: , ? I JUST DID! Yes, the little plastic things came off and I think I may have broken them a bit. Whoops. And James' computer still isn't fixed so my unlimited internet time is being wasted away. Oh, and after I talk about my happy stuff, I would like to once again complain about parents and... "apples". Yes.

Well, I made a friend today! Who says video games are for losers? While playing Mabinogi (awesome by the way), a whole bunch of people were trying to find this ring in like, a zillion snowmen so we all worked together and found the one we were supposed to hit. Lovely, right? And during the process, someone saved me (stupid cayotes kept attacking for no reason) several times, and I returned the favor, we made a fire so we could heal up a bit and searched some more. Now she added me to her friend list! I feel special!

Ok... and today... James ate lunch with me while I was at study hall. I love being with him as much as possible. And I've decided that when we bring him home tomorrow after whatever we do (Idea for a poll! Do it!) I'm going to walk him to his door so I can get a kiss that will last through my lonely Sunday. Yep =]

Now, back to apples. I'm once again, very confused about my own apple eating wishes, as in wondering if there's a wish at all. I probably should share this with all of you, but I trust you'll not tell anyone (or you die *ehem*) so I'll go and say it. I love you all! Now, I said something along the lines of sex, I don't remember what exactly, but you all know those stupid little things I say sometimes. Well, James responded, "I wouldn't mind that at all." I know he obviously wouldn't mind but does that mean he would try? And if he did would I stop him? My parents make this decision so much harder... It's not fair at all. How can I make a judgement when I know that someone's not going to be happy with me. And I would go with that whole "what I want" thing but I don't even know what I want. When I say I love James, I mean it. I don't care if someone thinks it's too soon to say it or I'm too young... I've said it to other guys but it's never been like this. I trust him but... I'm not the most experienced in relationship areas... I guess I'd have to figure out myself. Wish me luck!

Well I'm going to go make that poll that you are going to take. Love you all!

Your very confuddled friend,
Courtney

P.S. You like the new thing I'm doing with my closure?

P.S.S. Did you know "p.s." stood for post script? Would that be Post script script? Hm...