Feeling Ponderous

Actually, I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling. I'm not particularly upset.... well I am but it's a second hand feeling. I'm a bit tired but that's normal. Happy? Not quite. I get to talk to James but I feel kind of helpless.

Helpless.

There we go! Now, mind you, I'm not feeling all to emo and melancholy, but I'm definitely hating the fact that I don't know what to do to comfort people. My advice is best not taken and it's hard for me to help people. In fact, I usually end up making it worse by trying to make a retarded joke that ends up hurting someone. Hence, I usually just shut up and listen. I don't want to come across as ignoring someone, or mocking them, I'm just a little bit socially awkward in these situations. For example, I've been to one funeral in my memorable lifetime. I was there to support a friend but I ended up surrounded by a bunch of strangers.

Ok, I lied. I guess I'm a little emo too, but that just came. James left and I probably didn't do much supportive talking. Ugh I suck lol. *sigh*

Ok, well I think I'll go dwell... maybe think of something nice to do (besides drawing stupid smiley faces on cookies. Wow I suck =\) I'll go to sleep I suppose. Goodnight.


You're woeful friend,
Courtney