Spore!

Yes, I know I've been slacking with my blogs, but... no one reads them anyway lol. And it's all going to be about James anyway =] But he's just so amazing!
Either way, I went to Wal*Mart yesterday to by the Sims 2 for PC cuz I've had the worst craving... but they didn't have it so I bought a different game called Spore where you can make your own universe. It's pretty awesome.
Viva la France. Sorry, James thing.
Today I got to see my cousins from Virginia, who are the coolest family I have. Me and Carolyn connect on a level that I don't with any of my other cousins. It's nice to not have to compete with Matt like I do with Kyle. Always competing with Matt...
Either way, Carolyn likes Rent and Anime! HOW FREAKIN AWESOME??? Pretty awesome, that's what. We played in the snow and I decided to fuck with Matt's head.

Ok well that's I feel like typing now. I'm talking to the man of my dreams (who I get to spend New Years Eve with! YAY!) so none of you are as important =] Just kidding, Sisters before Misters lol but none of you really care anyway so... yeah. Bye! Oh, and here's a pic I took in my woods. It's kinda awesome lol.

Your fantabulous friend,
Courtney

96

It's not as funny as 69. not at all because it would just be back to back and that's no fun.

I don't know why I said that, but it came to mind because of Jess on thanksgiving haha.

Anyway, I'm in a horribly happy mood. The only reason it's horrible because the night isn't so great so I don't understand this "happiness" thing. It goes without reason... hm.... -.- Yeah, I've been arguing with James about apples. He feels bad about a certain thing (nonya biz) but I don't think he should and we've been going at it all night. HAHAHAHA that sounded wrong. And there's also the fact that half of my familiy hates/wants-nothing-to-do-with-me but I'm still feeling fabulous!

Ok. I figured I'd share that.

Your confuddled friend,
Courtney

Third time tonight haha

Well, technically it's the next day so ha. Either way, one more James update. He's physically in pain to and when he told me I almost started to cry. I feel like such a loser but I don't want him hurt because of me. :'(

How horrible. I hate myself.

Your masochistic friend,
Courtney

=D

Ok, that's more like it. A short entry to say that I feel so much better (I'm sitting up and eating skittles and now talking about tasting the rainbow). Yes, see how easy it was to make me happy? We're back to normal although I still hurt. I think that I miss him so much it actually hurts, like physically. It's weird, like someone is squeezing my stomach and cutting off my breath. It's causing a bit of clausterphobia but hopefully I'll get to see him soon. Bye!

Your much better friend,
Courtney

Shittiest in a while

I'm all slumped in my chair and frowny and I would even go as far to say I feel a bit sick.... What a contrast to last night. Last night, when I was talking to James (until 3 am) I was giggling and smiling and something was always going on in one of our three conversations. I hate it when he get's like this, "it's my fault, I'm a piece of shit." NO. Why can't he understand how truely amazing he is? No one has ever made me smile as much, made me open up and say things I never would of. Now here I am, listening to my Kill Hannah in the dark talking about pizza. Please allow me a few seconds to shank my watch *shanks watch*. I give up for now, I don't feel like doing anything. I even did one of those dramatic "toss pen down roughly" thing (I've started to write things out on paper first. Started Echo 2, as of now called Rhythms for lack of better title) So I'll be leaving now. Bye.

Your grumpy friend,
Courtney

I've been lazy haven't I...

Yeah, it's definitely been a while. Well today, me and James have been dating for 2 months! YAY US! but i feel bad because there should of been a snow day and there wasn't so i took it off anyway. So, lately I've written a short story called 101 ways to kill youself, gotten my first issue of Writer's Digest, have had some very... interesting conversations with James, played with fire, failed at making a gingerbread house, had a band concert, and... a lot of other stuff. Either way, the short story is pretty good lol and i don't feel like embeleshing anything else. So yeah, I figured you guys could get a quick update while I go write on paper. Toodles!

You're hopefully successful friend,
Courtney

Been a Few Days, Huh...

Yeah, well I've been preocupied and lazy. Actually, I'm feeling quite lazy now but James isn't responding and there's nothing else to do online so..... vuahla.

I got hooked on this new band called We the Kings. They're pretty kick ass, check them out. And I downloaded some All-American Rejects, they're kick ass too. And today I downloaded some Sailor Moon songs. Yeah, shut up. Sailor Moon is pimp man.

I just made cookies for James.... lots and lots of triple chocolate cookies. And I figured out what I'm getting him for x-mas so HA. And he told me what he was going to get me (a Columbus Crew championship shirt) but he changed his mind. He says that whatever it is is more useful and more expensive, which isn't nice. Well, it is but now I feel bad.

Oh! And I got James hooked to Rent. He's watched it three times since yesterday. What can I say though, it's amazing. He wants to watch it with me soon so I'm pretty freaking stoked. Ok then, bye for now.

You're lovely loving friend,
Courtney

Owwie

Just got back from martial arts. It sucks cuz I hurt but I'm ungrounded so I'm talking to James and it lessens the pain a little =]

Yeah, James came over Saturday and we were all playing COD WAW (the new one) in the basement. First he stole my controller because there weren't enough (Jon was there too) so I sat very close while he was playing. I'm surprised no one said anything. Then my mom said that we had ten minutes before he had to go. I figured "ok" but we weren't paying attention. Next thing I knew, she's barging down the stairs screaming at me that she's been sitting in the car for 11 minutes and she's been texting me. My phone was in my room! AHH! So we sped home (pfft, we could of died lol) and she told us, and I quote, "I no longer an going to have anything to do with your relationship. Good luck seeing eachother." Poor James felt bad. So I've been grounded until today. Yeah...

Well that's all I'm going to say now. I have a lot to think about (of which I'm not mentioning here) so I'll see you all in school.

You're owful friend,
Courtney

Gobble Gobble (don't shoot in turkish)

Yes, that is a fact, so if you ever see a turkey and it says gobble gobble, that's what it's trying to say. Yeah, I went to my aunt's for good ole turkey day and spent the whole time playing video games with my cousin =]

I really don't feel much like blogging right now. I'm eating sunflower seeds and having a fantastic conversation with James. I'll see you all in school monday. Bye!

Your dreamy friend,
Courtney

Chivalry Hasn't Died

So my last few days have been interesting. Yesterday, James made me muffins =] They were really good. He then said "When we have a house I have a feeling I'm going to be doing most of the cooking" lol. How true. And today there was no school. That was nice, although I really wanted to see James again before break... Maybe I'll see him saturday. That'd be nice. And... my aunt was here for a while today. I miss her and she's moving but my mom's being immature about it. What's new there...

Oh, and the title. First of all, on Friday James was a bit short on cash so I lent him five bucks. No big deal, right? Well in school yesterday he told me to close my eyes, hold out my hand, and promise not to give it back. I suspicously did as he told and, vua la, a five dollar bill. Then, last night, I asked him once more what he wanted for christmas and he said nothing. I'm not gonna say details, but in short he says I shouldn't have to give him anything and he doesn't care if I want to or not. Mi Wifey just said I should frame a pic for him and it's actually a good idea. Now I just need to coax him infront of a camera with me lol. Yeah!

Ok then. Now to ponder poses lol. Goodnight!

Your manipulative friend,
Courtney

50th Post. This calls for a celebration! (amongst other things)

LOTS OF NEWS FOR YOU!
1)I got a new phone and it's amazing. It's the LG VU and it's got a touch screen and unlimited texting so feel free to message me (772-0204).
2)I had two James days this weekend. Friday we went to go see Twilight (see 3) and yesterday he came over and hung out with Matt and my cousin Kyle (see 4)
3)Twilight was awesome =]
4)James is freakin awesome at life. Just cuz he is, but he's a little fuckwad too lol. We were playing COD, last man standing (where we only had one life) and I took him out so he leaned me across his lap and tried to kiss me. My responce was "You're trying to distract me aren't you!" and he nodded lol. Little fucker. Yeah, I was in his lap the whole time and we both really suck at Madden haha
5)I started to write Echo 2(for lack of better title)
6) COLUMBUS CREW WON THE MLS CUP! Score was 3-1 cuz we kick fuckin ass.
7)I get my class ring tomorrow.

Ok... That's it for tonight. I'm gonna continue talking to the most amazing guy in the world =] Goodnight!

Your fantabulously wonderful friend,
Courtney

HAPPY MONTHAVERSARY TO ME!

Yay us! One month today! Skills, I know. And I must say, this might be the happiest month I've ever lived. Although I have yet to tell James that I'll be spending Valentines Day in.....

Jamaica!

Although I'm excited, I'm a bit heartbroken. I was looking forward to V-day this year, you know, not spending it alone and all. Maybe I'll buy James a webcam and we can have an e-date. I'll probably try to arange something before-after but it sucks. Haha, pat meat... Sorry, the TV is on. Well, James isn't online tonight and I only have until 10 (got in trouble last night). I'm going to go to sparknotes and then put my mom's laundry in the dryer so I can avoid trouble. Goodnighth world.

You're sad but soon tan friend,
Courtney

FOR ONCE!

For the first time in like, ever, I have hated this storm with more passion then... ever! Because of this storm (yeah, there's a storm up here in NY by the way), James wasn't allowed to come over! WHAT THE HELL! Have you noticed at all how excited I've been for today to come? My week crawled by because I wanted to see him outside of school. It was the only thing that got me through the week in the first place. TODD DAMN IT!

Either way, I'll set my ANGRY HATEFULL VENGEFULL feelings aside for now. Um... Yeah, drawing a blank. I'm still writing about my original idea... and I'mma go see twilight on friday. And.... uh.... ok then. I guess that's it for now. Bye you lucky bastards.

Your scornful friend,
Courtney

Finally!

Tomorrow is Saturday! YAY! Cuz I miss James. Well, I've missed him as soon as he was out of reach but that's besides the point. I was thinking earlier and remembering that I will never EVER let him read this. Ever. Haha, not that it's bad or anything, but... I dunno. This corny sappy stuff is better in person, donthca think?

Ok... Well I'm trying to find out what to write about. My back hurts and I haven't felt good for like two weeks. OH! I almost died today in Music Theory. Came close to choking to death on my spit. I'm okay though. And James' eye is all swolen haha.

Yeah, he was joking around and he slammed me into his locker so Tim came up and slammed him into it and then I hit him and then Tim again, but his eye came and hit the top corner of the locker. It was a little funny, but it's alright cuz he's alright so I don't have to feel bad.
I guess that's it for now. Goodnight.

Your hopelessly lifeless friend,
Courtney

TOTS!

These are tater tots. I ate all the "s"s so i had to use a Z. Yes.

So today I didn't eat lunch. Why you ask? Well I have a photography project due tomorrow that I'm not nearly finished with. Damn. And I probably won't eat tomorrow either but I'm NOT skipping studay hall because James will be there. And it's almost SATURDAY! Ok then. Oh, and I'm gonna post a stupid pole by request... It's a lame topic but it's all I could think of for now. And.... I'm drinking out of my rocket ship cup. And I don't feel lame because James gets the rocket cups to. AND eats of of the kids menu. We are so good together =]

Yeah, and his computer still isn't working and I'm very upset. Almost saturday. That makes it more bearable. And... I totally forgot what I was about to type. OH! During music theory today, we played our Circle of 5ths game and I did really good. AND I started a new, Meyer-proof story, about.... *keys dramatic theme music* WEREDRAGONS! I know she did werewolves, but not weredragons! Yay me! Goodnight though.

Your impatient friend,
Courtney

Bow wow

Idk where that came from. On a blogblock. Yeah... but my writing is doing ok. I suppose I'm blocked up because I'm trying to decide how much of my decision making factors (on apples) I want to share with you all. Not much because I feel so lame saying out loud. Which is why I haven't yet. Maybe I'll do that later when everyone's asleep, just for analyctic purpouses. Yeah, that's an idea.

Ok, I'm really pissed at Stephanie Meyer. She's like, in my head or something, but since she's already famous, she's getting those ideas published before me. There are so many similarities that I never intended, and I don't want people to think I'm unoriginal, because I'm not. I just am not as quick as her. Grr.

Ok, well today I brought my Japanese soda to school today. First it bubbled over in the hall. Then Jen spilled it. I'm going to make a diagram on paint to demonstrate.


Haha, amazing. Either way, she was watching the marble and tipping it while it was still half full. She didn't realize there was a lid and just poured it all over her desk. It was funny.

Moving on, I had study hall today with James sixth. I somehow ended up laying down on the floor under my desk with him sitting above me. Very random haha. But very nice either way. Yeah, well I gots to go now. See you in school tomorrow!

Your lonely friend,
Courtney

Ramune!

This is the most amazing soda in the world. It's Shirakiku Ramune Drink and it has a marble in it =]

Anyway... I set up the PS2 in my room today so that when James comes over friday, we can watch movies in my room. It took me forever to figure out how to do it, and when my mom helped me the audio got all fucked up. Then i fixed it but it was to fuzzy to see and I fixed that to. I'm so smart. Then I was playing spiderman while talking to serena on the phone. It took me a few minutes to process the whole "spiderman" thins (see previous blog kaity lol). Then I started to laugh very hard.

OH! I sat in the office for like 40 minutes today for a two minute conversation. Although, I did publisize my book a little... I was talking to the secretary about it and she said she was going to read some of it on kiwibox. Yeah. I'm that awesome. Either way, I got into Mr. Wordens office (who hasn't? haha. Totally uncalled for, he's nice.), and sat down. Here's our conversation.

him- do you know why you're here?
Me- no idea
Well that's good, maybe this is just a misunderstanding then.
Ok then.
Were you in school friday?
Yeah.
Did you go to phys ed?
No. i had a band lesson.
You can't skip gym for band. Oh wait, was it a make up?
No.
Ok the. *writes down on paper* " went to band lesson" Ok then, you can go now.
Thanks. Bye.

How lame! Ok then, goodnight all. comment mi loves!

Your even confuddleder friend,
Courtney

Told Ya (HELLO WIFEY!)

See? Two posts in one day. Damn I have no life. Not that much happened in the time of my last post... Did I mention my Japanese soda? Maybe I did, maybe I didn't, but I will now. It's really good, and it's awesome to open. It has a marble in the lid and you have to push the marble down to drink. It's awesome.

I really wanted to talk to serena about apples but she wasn't home when I called. It's just something that's weird to talk about. I told matt that I have a problem I have no one to talk to about and he's like "you can talk to me." Pffft, yeah right. Then he asked me if I missed my period. What nerve!

Ok, This paragraph is dedicated to my wifey (who is mentioned above and below). She's like, awesome and she's my wifey AND I LOVE HER!!!!!!!! Love ya for life!

Either way, I'm going to go now. Hi Kaity, I love my wifey! Yeah... See you all in school tomorrow =]

Your fizzy friend,
Courtney

James' freakin huge shoes. Very manly, huh?

New appreciation for Spiderman

Haha... Kissing upside down is fun =]

Either way, we decided on bowling. I lost so badly, but I definitely punched James in the nuts by accident. I slipped on the corner of the ledge and as I was falling (seemingly in slow motion) I was thinking "Omt, I just groped him." Turns out I actually punched him so I felt bad (that there wasn't a camera running eh hem).

It was really fun though. We hung out a few hours before we left. We chilled in my room and watched gabrial inglesia. Then in the car, i had my head on his shoulder and my hand in his. Lots of cuddling =]. Then, while bowling, it alternated between leaning on the wall with him or sitting on him lol. Then we went home and watched the food channel until his mom called and said he had to go home. I had my head on his lap the whole ride home (on, not in you perves). Yes, and I provoked some more apple related questions, but I'm not going there now because i'm to embarrased to say haha. I'll call serena later. Until tonight! (I'll probably post again)

Your Mary Jane friend,
Courtney

Post 40!

Yay! *pats self on back* I've managed to stay commited to this blog! And on top of that I had a remotely good day... sorta. I'll even manage to fit all the bad stuff in this opening paragraph thingy, just for your viewing pleasure. My comma key broke when I tried to fix it. Wondering how I'm about to do this: , ? I JUST DID! Yes, the little plastic things came off and I think I may have broken them a bit. Whoops. And James' computer still isn't fixed so my unlimited internet time is being wasted away. Oh, and after I talk about my happy stuff, I would like to once again complain about parents and... "apples". Yes.

Well, I made a friend today! Who says video games are for losers? While playing Mabinogi (awesome by the way), a whole bunch of people were trying to find this ring in like, a zillion snowmen so we all worked together and found the one we were supposed to hit. Lovely, right? And during the process, someone saved me (stupid cayotes kept attacking for no reason) several times, and I returned the favor, we made a fire so we could heal up a bit and searched some more. Now she added me to her friend list! I feel special!

Ok... and today... James ate lunch with me while I was at study hall. I love being with him as much as possible. And I've decided that when we bring him home tomorrow after whatever we do (Idea for a poll! Do it!) I'm going to walk him to his door so I can get a kiss that will last through my lonely Sunday. Yep =]

Now, back to apples. I'm once again, very confused about my own apple eating wishes, as in wondering if there's a wish at all. I probably should share this with all of you, but I trust you'll not tell anyone (or you die *ehem*) so I'll go and say it. I love you all! Now, I said something along the lines of sex, I don't remember what exactly, but you all know those stupid little things I say sometimes. Well, James responded, "I wouldn't mind that at all." I know he obviously wouldn't mind but does that mean he would try? And if he did would I stop him? My parents make this decision so much harder... It's not fair at all. How can I make a judgement when I know that someone's not going to be happy with me. And I would go with that whole "what I want" thing but I don't even know what I want. When I say I love James, I mean it. I don't care if someone thinks it's too soon to say it or I'm too young... I've said it to other guys but it's never been like this. I trust him but... I'm not the most experienced in relationship areas... I guess I'd have to figure out myself. Wish me luck!

Well I'm going to go make that poll that you are going to take. Love you all!

Your very confuddled friend,
Courtney

P.S. You like the new thing I'm doing with my closure?

P.S.S. Did you know "p.s." stood for post script? Would that be Post script script? Hm...

Hello Gary *waves*

Haha, another dedicated title. Am I great or what? Well... if I were great I wouldn't be blogging about blood...

Yeah, so I painted my toe nails for homecoming, and we don't have any nail polish remover so I was playing with my pocket knife trying to get it off. Not the greatest idea, I know. And I learned my lesson and am getting an award so it makes things alright.

Either way, I looked down and noticed my big toe was bleeding. I didn't even feel it until I saw it, and we all know how that works. Thankfully, during my expedition to clean my room (and when I say expedition, I mean it. Seriously, they could of made a movie out of it or something) I found a bunch of bandaids and neglected to put them somewhere so they were at easy access.

When my toe finally stopped bleeding, I continued to slice open my thumb. I felt like a vampire, licking the blood off =] No matter how hard I tried, I could never be as cool a vampire as any of the Cullens, or Kiera and Alex. My vampires =]

So now my thumb isn't bleeding anymore either, but it hurts to touch (and yes, I know that's a given too) but my question mark key is sticking. I'm going to have to investigate that later because I'm on a writing frenzy. Go page 106 now I think. My second book... I'm crazy awesome haha. Ok then, goodnight world!

Soon to be famous author:
Courtney

Hi Kyle!

That title had better not have been wasted mister. I'll know. And if it wasn't wasted, WELCOME TO MY DOMAIN! (and comment).

Anyway, I've had another fantabulous day. James kissed me not once, not twice, but three times today. I can get used to this. Except for the fact that as soon as he's out of reach i miss him. How pathetic am I? Pretty pathetic, but I'm happy so I'm not complaining. Oh! and I'm currently on page 104. Pretty amazing, huh. I've decided to write to stephenie meyer because I have all of these ideas and she keeps getting them published before me. It pisses me off because I don't want to get sued or something, or worse, blamed for copying her. I don't do that, I have my oewn ideas and if you say differently, I will stab you with a large serrated hunting knife covered in peroxode, then I will pour salt on your wounds and feed you your privates through your ass. Just to let you know. >=]

Ok, enoug of the violent charade. I'm in too good a mood for death threats (did I just really say that? That's worse than "I can't wait for school tomorrow!" Ew.) Enough of that. I'm going to kill the world off now. Leave the love! Byebye

Courtney

Buzz Buzz Tweet

Yep. Here it comes, finally a blog about the birds and the bees. Not that I've had anything to do with them in particular, but I've been thinking a lot about it lately. Mostly about how teenagers are affected about the "sex talk". How can a person properly judge if they're ready or now when parents and teachers and society is always saying how it's so bad? If everyone tells you that you shouldn't eat apples, you probably wouldn't, right? Yet all the people who tell you this eat apples all the time. What if that apple looks really good and you think you want to eat it but then you think of how everyone always says "Your not ready until your married. Don't do it." How is that fair? All of these outside influences are impairing our ability to make the right decision. Yeah... sorry, I've been thinking about that lately. Like my apple reference?

In other news, I'm just about to page 100 in my other story =D Yay me! Ok then, I'm going to try and take out the world now, which reminds me. Play this game:

http://www.addictinggames.com/pandemic2.html

If that doesn't work, just type Pandemic into the search box. It's really fun =] Here, I'll try to find a picture. I haven't posted one in forever.

I might go here this February. Nice, huh?

Giggly today...

Yeah, so last night, James came over and we watched Saw III and some of Saw IV. I like watching movies with him =], although it'd be better if my family wasn't in the room... You know, with my mom always watching and my brother farting all over us. Either way, it couldn't ruin the moment =D We were so close and it was AMAZING. I was leaning on his chest with his arm around me and my hand around his waist, it was pretty flippin awesome. And he's so warm =] and... ok, I'll stop now. Anyway, we had to drive him home at midnight... But for the second night in a row I had a very nice dream =].

Yes, so today was my dad's birthday and I didn't have a gift/card. On some creative improv, I shoved some candles in a Krispy Kreme (my grandma ate mine without asking >=[) and brought it to him. That's about the extent of my day, although I decided I want an iPod touch, looks fun =]. Well I'm gonna wait to talk to James, even though I bet his router is still broke. Oh well, I'll see him tomorrow. Bye my love!

Courtney

Warning

Another sappy post, just to let you know. Because once again, I feel FANTABULOUS! Of coure, it's for the same reason, just repeated. Ok, just incase you didn't catch it yesterday, my boyfriend kissed me yesterday. Nothing major, but all the same amazing! Everything about him just feels right.

Ok, past the sap now. I got doughnuts today. Yay, that's about it lol. I'm just to happy to think about anything else =]. G'NIGHT!

Courtney

Crazy Monkey!

That's what my buddy icon says everytime I type "lol". Anyway, besides the fact I feel sick, I FELL FANTABULOUS!


Guess what me and James did today. You probably guessed right! Well, I hope you do because if you don't you don't deserve to know, and it's not anything bad >.<

Either way, it was really nice. I've been so nervous lately, that just being the kind of girl I am, but it didn't feel awkward at all. Everything with James seems to fit the right way =]. He's also very warm. Of course Matt had to be a dickface fuckwad and rant and rave about how I don't know what love is, but really. Have I ever been this happy? EVER? Maybe I should mention that I always fall to fast and to hard, but I don't see how anything can go wrong at this point.

Well, I'm going to continue having corny conversations, Talk to ya bitches!

Courtney

GO CREW!

My MLS soccer team is in the semifinals. Hell yeah! I hope we do good. Wooh.

Um... I'm trying to think of what to write. OMT. This writers block is killing me. When it gets to my blogs, you know there's a problem. Ok then, well, I have an illegitamate son named Cedric Edward Amlon. He's a violin I named for the other Courtney. We love him. Very much. But not as much as I love James.

OMT again. I've come to the conclusion. My lovesickness has caused my creativity to block up. Of course it's wonderful how I feel, but whenever I try to write I can only spit out ooey gooey sap. It's nice when talking to James, but I hate writing happy stuff. I haven't written a poem in a long time. AHHHH! lol.

Ok then, well I'm going to go feed my blockage some more. Maybe if I get to sappy I'll puke out some awesome writing material. Good luck me!

Hm...

I was gonna mention my 30th post, but I forgot about it and don't feel like changing it. Oh well. To late now. Anyway, I think I'm getting sick. This morning I woke up and I was shaking. I've been a bit dizzy and having some headaches, plus the fact that I'm really really tired. I've been resorting to naps lately, which is rare for me. I don't like naps, it feels like a waste of daylight personally.

On a brighter side of things, I hope to hit page 90 in Leanne by the end of the night. Also, I've been thinking about how happy I am. I find myself just smiling now. I get to thinking about... things... and it makes me happy. Then when I hear certain songs (Shake It- Metro Station, Famous Last Words, Teenager- My Chemical Romance) I start to smile because it reminds me of certain conversations with James. It's really awesome that I'm this happy, and rare too.

I'll wrap up with my dream from last night. It was strange, I don't remember a lot. I remember babysitting, and James picking me up from it. Then we all went to the mall and Jess almost bought $700 jeans. James then bought some food but they gave him strawberry milk instead and made him pay 11 bucks so he dumped it. Yeah...

Ok then. Goodnight, I'm going to try to heal and be happy!

Courtney

It's Been a While

Yeah... it has. Sorry, I've been going through withdrawal. What day is it anyway? *checks* Damn, five days I think since my last post. Well, since then I've been thoroughly confused, happy again, on a date, grossed out, exhausted, wired, exhausted, wired (repeat) scared, apathetic, angry... Yeah. Let's skip to the date =]. I picked James up after a day of skipping school at eight o'clock. Then we hung out and went to the movies. He talks a lot lol, but he bought me snow caps! Hehe. Yeah, it was fun. I just spent the whole weekend at Jess's house. I would go into details but I suddenly lost intrest in this lol. It's b/c of the ADD. You should understand. Bye then.

James at his last game! Perfect record lol

Woo!

Uhhh. Haha, listening to Metro Station, but GUESS WHAT! It's not Kelsey!!! Yes, be amazed. Oh, I tried to turn James into a vampire today lol. I jumped onto his back and bit his neck =] Kinky! XD.

Yes, so said possibility didn't happen.... That's alright though, it will in time. AND I'm trying to figure out what to do on Friday because I'm spending all day with Jess but she's going to dinner and then we're going to the movies, but what am I doing in that time between? Maybe I'll see if I can hang with James, or if my mom can pick us up and take us. I need to clean my room!

Yeah, so I'm going to occupy his attention now. Toodles!

110

That's how many times I've listened to Kelsey, by Metro Station. Pathetic? Maybe. Braggable? In a bad way. Lame? Yeah. But I love the lyrics, I'll post them and you'll see... Ok, maybe not. Look it up yourself on youtube you fuckwads!

Yeah, so something may or may not happen tomorrow, but I can't say and it's killing me not to, so don't even ask about it. Either way, I'm stoked. Yes, and tomorrow James has a game, and I can't go but I'm still wearing his jersey. I'm going on thursday. As of now we're discussing the thought of living on an island alone, just spending all day in our hammok. Sweet =]

Oh, and he's trying to convince me to join track lol, but I would suck so bad! Haha. Yeah, well I'm going to go and continue upping my play count and fantasizing about sunny days on the beach =] Sweet dreams you all!

Never Before

This is amazing. I feel like I could fly, but not like I want to try. Like I just got over some horrid sickness and if I ever get it again I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Like I could be in one of those 5 Gum commercials. It feels amazing.

I wouldn't go as far as to call it love, only because I'm not sure if it's to early for that. I don't know, but i haven't felt better than this like, ever. James is the sweetest, most original, caring guy I've ever dated. He complementes me all the time and told me to stop saying thanks. I'm totally comfortable talking to him, and when he puts his arm around my waist I feel sort of like I fit. It feels so corny to say, but.... I don't even know what to say. I just know that whatever I'm feeling is good and I like it. A lot.

Either way, we might all get together at Jess's sunday, and we might all watch movies. I'm waiting for the chance for me to see him again. Really waiting. I think this is going to be a very good thing. Goodnight, and you better comment Courtney!

GO SOCCER!

I love life. I love soccer. I LOVE YOU! Tomorrow I'm going to be suited up in James' jersey!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO LIFE! Therefore, I'll have his shirt, and his sweatshirt on. Then me and jess are going to his game tomorrow. Then psat's ruin it. But I'll get over it! Either way, I don't feel much like blogging.... more like talking on AIM for as long as time permits... So I'll talk to y'all later (sorry, hick moment)

LOVE YOU!

I VANT TO DANCE!

Ok, it's oficially official.... or not... idk, I technically didn't respond but I'm pretty sure he got the point when I jumped on his back (then promptly got slammed into a locker, and NOT the way you're thinking perves). Therefor, I've been in an amazing mood all day. In fact, I'm in such an amazing mood that I'm to lazy to write more. I'll post another picture for me, I mean you, though... lol. Oh! And I know a whole bunch of people are going to see Saw 5 and I haven't seen any of the others, so I just might casually hint that I don't want to watch it alone haha. Maybe see if anything comes of it.

;-)

Still in a fabulous mood. Isn't it great? This whole "being happy" thing is quite new to me, and I'm enjoying it. I'm a bit pissed off, but still happy *says while hugging self* I STOLE HIS SWEATSHIRT! He's NOT getting it back. Happy happy happy! I did, however, find out that we're not officially dating I think... First, in Spanish, we were passing notes (hehe) and he asked me if I had a good time Saturday. I said I did and as I recall, he still owes me a sweatshirt. He was like "You remembered that?" He said I could have his but he needed it back by ninth. Then we had another fire drill so... Yeah. Then after fourth, (my reason for being pissed btw, I'll get to that soon. No worries) I saw him in the hall and said "Fork it over, I'm cold." We started to talk while he took off his sweatshirt and he told me that these two people were going to try to hook us up. I didn't know how to react! Lol. I like him. A lot. But I lack something called a spine so I'm not going to say something until he does. Then he said that it would piss my brother off haha. Then I went off to Music Theory (Where I tried an almond M&M. Yum.)
So, during ninth, we were all chilling and when we went to my locker he's like "I'm not getting my sweatshirt back, am I?" In short, I'm wearing it as I type. SO WARM! And he smells nice haha.

Ok, back to fourth. My printer is a fuckwad, and if there's no "Cyan" ink, it won't even print black. Therefore, when I finished that paper I had forgotten about, I couldn't print it so I saved it on a flash drive and brought it to the library in the morning. It wouldn't work, and I was quite eager to get to Spanish, so I left it. I asked Kaity if she could print it for me third because she was going to study hall and going to be on a computer and she promised she would. She didn't. She did the group paper instead, which I thought she did last night. And of course, because my English teacher is somewhat psycotic, she wouldn't let me print it in class and I couldn't hand it in later. Therefore, my already horrid grade is going to drop even more. I'm so pissed.

Ok then. Maybe I'll post a picture... I just have to pick one. Ok then, other than that, good night!

This is something my mom saw, it's funny lol. I love insults that are branched from actual things =]

I Love Life!

I'm sure you're wondering what brought upon this very dramatic change of mood. I would be, being mostly I'm a somewhat crazy and very pessimistic blob of matter most of the time. Well, it's because I had a KICK ASS weekend.

Kay, remember that guy from the bonfire Friday night? I DO! BECAUSE HE MIGHT POSSIBLY MAYBE BE MY BOYFRIEND NOW! How could I not know for sure? It's confusing. At homecoming, lots of things went down. We were practically attached at the hip (well, waist if you want to get technical) the whole time. Then he asked me to prom. And at one point, we were all standing outside, and he A) offered to let me sit on his lap and B) asked me how old I was. When I answered, he said "good, now I don't have to feel bad about dating a junior. Oh, did I say that out loud?" AHH! We sorta danced together too. Then Matt was getting all pissy and walked up to us and said "Arms lenght!" so I dragged the guy over to Matt and gave him a big hug. It was awesome. However, although we certainly acted like we were daiting the whole time, he never once asked "will you go out with me?" or anything along those lines. Very confusing.

This is us. We were both looking at different cameras lol.
Then I slept over at Jess's and didn't want to wake up in the morning because I had, for the first time in like, ever, gotten myself super confortable with my heated blanket and bundle of comforters. Yay. Well, Amie and Bridget joined us and we went off to Six Flags in Jersey for Frightfest. Awesome! Although the lines were a bit overly large, it was really fun. At night, things kept jumping out and scaring the shit out of all of us. Then of course, it didn't help that I don't like people in costume and.... Yeah.... Amie was an awesome hug buddy haha. She helped me through the hard times! In the car ride home, we were all wired. I got pissed off though, because on the way to the car some FUCKWAD was beeping at us. The arrow CLEARLY pointed the other way, so they weren't even driving in the right lane so who the hell are they to beep at me? No one, that's who. We had KFC too!

Then today me and Jess just hung out. Nikki farted in my face *ick* and we saw some wolves or cayotes or something!!!! Here, give me a few minutes and I'll see if she can send me a pic. Or Bryan. Haha.

Changes

So I think I kinda like a guy who I think likes me because he's going to let me wear his sweatshirt on Tuesday, he kept tackling me (he even slapped my ass once), and he wanted me to go to his game tomorrow. I'm not going to say who, but... *squeals* AND! Because I have to babysit at 11:30 tomorrow and I can't go to his game, I might try to go to one after school this week, and tomorrow is homecoming so who knows! *squeals again*. Ok then. Well, I'm tired (and not supposed to be online) so I'll check in with y'all monday night (Long weekend w/ jess.) Here, I'll even post another picture for you. Another awesome action shot *giggles*

James jumping a skateboard on a skateboard =]

Ow

I just accidentally kicked my floor. It hurt like fucking fuck. Yes. Plus the fact that I just came back from martial arts. Remember that little Mexican I was talking about? He came back and did nothing but annoy me this whole time. And I'm sore but I did TEN pushups without cheating =].

Josh Todd at Crue Fest. Not the greatest pic. Not the greatest lighting. Give me a break.

Um...................... I'm trying to think of a story to write for school. Instead of raving success I'm instead experiencing some crazily annoying writers block. I think it has something to do with: A)The fact it has to be school appropriate. This "no cursing" deal is kicking the shit out of me and B) There's pressure. I know it's weird because I had no trouble writing a book I know, or hope, the whole world will read. What's a few measly class mates who mean nothing to me? Well I still have a year left in that hell hole and I want to make a good impression on the fuckwads. Hehehe. Ok then.

I'm going to go tease Jess a little more before hitting the hay (Sooooo tired!) so I'll talk to you all tomorrow =]

Love ya!
Courtney

SHIT SHIT SHIT!

Group project in english due tomorrow. No presentation at all arranged. Shitty group. Yes, that's my life. Me and Mike were the only ones that worked. I'm so pissed, because we're going to look like fucking idiots tommorow and there's nothing I can do about it. I feel like biting someone. Any offers? (If so do you happen to be a hot, available guy?) Ok then. Sorry. (Because Homecoming is this weekend and I lack a date) Ok then again. Sorry. (I don't want to be alone!) SHUT THE FUCK UP ALTER-EGO! *ehem* it's alright.

In other news, I started another story yesterday. It's about this chick with Psycic powers. It's pretty cool, I hope. I want to finish chapter one tonight so I can print it and show people tomorrow. Maybe I'll post it here too. Tomorrow, if you want. If you don't *wipes tear* YOU'LL HAVE TO WAIT TILL I'M PUBLISHED! Or until I see you in school or something (Courtney) lol.

Oh, have I told you all how much my family sucks yet? Let's see. Last night, my Uncle Pat told my mom to Fuck off and to go suck a dick. Not very nice... but I give him credit to saying something I never would (I need a backbone dammit). My mom then started ranting about how I remain neutral in this whole fiasco. But seriously, I have enough drama in my life between Matt, Mom, Dad, friends, school, and my own life inhabitants without taking on my aunt's as well. I don't see a problem with that. Mom keeps saying "So you don't think what he did to your aunt was wrong?" (cheating) and I do, but it's not my battle to fight. She then follows with "when my sister comes crying to me it's my business" So my responce is "yeah, and Serena's like my sister but she's not even allowed to call crying to me." She shuts up. Then starts fighting with me about Serena. I'm sick of it. Grr.

Oh, I had a weird dream last night. I'd rather not post it publicly so if you'd like to hear about it email me. Yes, it's that weird. Well, I'm going to go and finish that chapter. But I might also post another concert pic, which will probably end up at the top. Damn.... Well, it's awesome anyway because I'm awesome sorta not. Enjoy (I know I will).

OMT! I did it! I got it to the bottom!
Anyway, this is Trace. He was at the awesomest concert in the world. I have yet to post more pics from this awesome concert, but I think this is a good action shot. I should so email these to the bands!!!!!!!! Haha, that'll never happen. Ok then. Bye!

Courtney

Experimenting

Ok, it wouldn't go to the bottom like I told it to. Damn technology.
Well, This is Kenny. I'm already his official photographer lol. He's not even famous yet but I am amazing with the camera =]

Ok. This is my very kickass picture of Adam Levine (Maroon 5) at Bethel!
Concert Pics are deff. my thing.

Anyway, I drank coffee for the first time like, ever this morning. With lots of sugar. Big mistake. I was bouncing off of the walls all day! But it was funny. Ok, I feel like posting another picture because I figured out how! I'm so proud =]. This will be one of my kick ass action shots of my friend skateboarding.

*Girlish Squeal*

TODAY WAS AWESOME!

First, I FINISHED WRITING MY BOOK. I'm so proud of myself. I hope you all are too.
Second, I am awesome at martial arts.

Ok, well i'm to exhuberantly tired to blog right now. Email me!

*Faints*

I don't think I've used that title yet, right? Well, I feel like passing out. BECAUSE I'M WRITING MY EPILOGUE AS WE SPEAK OR WRITE... OR DON'T COMMUNICATE AT ALL... Ok then. Either way, it's pretty crazy. I've been doing some research on agents and publishing and stuff. I'm pretty freaked out. So much seems to rely on the first chapter, but what if mine isn't good and I don't get an agent and I don't get published and... Ok. Sorry, breakdown complete.

Well, I have to go. Cerfew sucks. Don't get in trouble. That was my PSA. Be happy.

Courtney

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY FIRST BOOK. After I get published and famous *crosses fingers* maybe people will actually read this hehe. Ok then. It's pretty amazing. Yes, well I have to go now. Comment Courtney!

John Ohhh!

Hehe, John Ohhh. How hot. He invented the eyePod... haha, http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=5917901&albumID=52174&imageID=30951913 Click there and figure out what I mean. Yes, and stop to admire the beauty behind the earphones. I SAID ADMIRE! *ehem* I'm ok. Or not. I BROKE IT! Ok. another Courtney moment. You wouldn't understand, unless you're Courtney, but even then... You might understand b/c you know how... strange... I am.

Anywho. Haha, want to make you scream. Sorry again. I'm really hyper. I'm listening to Buckcherry. Big Surprise. I had my first martial arts class in a while. I hurt. My knees hurt, my legs hurt, my head hurts, and the little mexican kid had no idea what he was doing. I mean, I know he's a fourth grader.... But really. And there's suppoesed to be like, this 59 year old. This should be interesting.

I've decided to start ending my book. There will only be a few more chapters, if that. I've decided on the ending, and I'm terribly sorry Courtney, but I might not fit you in the first book. Mainly because I want to end with an awesome vampire fight, but I promise, next book. LOVE YOU!

Ok well thats it for now. Byebye!

Courtney

Uh...

Not a song lyric/title. Are you proud Courtney? Ok then. I don't know if I mentioned in my previous entry, and I'm to lazy to check, but I'm considering wrapping Echo up soon. OMT! I just read an email about getting published (quite the timing, huh) and it said something like costing $800 for a plan or something! Holy crap! My mom told me that they would pay me! Ok then. Well, I'll figure that out I suppose. My problem is that I'm getting to a critical point where it either ends soon or I can make it longer. I want to find out how Microsoft Works pages transfer to published book pages. I only have, like 144 pages I think. Everyone is telling me to let it go with the flow and end when it needs to but I want a long book. I want to beat Stephanie Meyer!!! *evil laugh* I know that might be a little high of a standard, but people either love her books or hate them. I wonder if people will like Alex as much as they like Edward (although Edward sounds like a FREAKING SEXY BEAST!). Ok... but I want long books. Jess told me it will be like, doubled, but people have told me it will be about the same... I don't want "Joey's first chapter book!" Although Joey might bite off more then he can chew (get it? Bite? Vampires? You people suck. Or not. I can't tell if you're laughing or not from here). Josh Todd is awesome... better than Edward. I want to see if I can figure out how to post videos on this... Then you can bask in the can't-dance hottness of my main squeeze... I wish haha. Ok, here goes (another Rent moment just happened.) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FpWpYl6kmNg Ok. I couldn't figure it out, so click here to see MY LOVE! hehe. Goodnight friend(s)!

Courtney

It's Beyond Me, I Cannot Carry The Weight of a Heavy World

Oh my, not another song lyric. This one is suiting to the entry, however. My life is a mess. I hate it and the title says it all. I can't do everything. It's getting to much to handle, but what to do...

My parents are idiots. There is this whole custody battle for Matt about to go on because my dad is irresponsible and my mom is immature. Matt made a good point today, however. If I testify, everyone is fucked. My words: "You're all assholes. I don't want to be invovled. You're acting like preteens having a petty battle. Grow up and stop tearing the already strained family apart. Fuck off now. Yes, I said fuck off. Hey! Don't hit your gavel at me!" Yes. That's how it would go because I've held things in too long and curses will fly. I hate my life.

On other news, I went shopping with Jess yesterday. Shopping with friends is much funner than shopping with parents. And yes, I said funner. Get over it. I bought my dress and some shoes. Crap, I have 5 minutes. Shit.... My mom didn't like the shoes or the dress, said I looked like a slut.

Next order of business. I'm trying to figure out how Word translates to Book. I'm thinking about wrapping it up soon. Have it done before x-mas maybe.

I bought the new Buckcherry CD. Awesome. Got to go now. Bye love! Wish me luck with LIFE!

Courtney

Infatuation

Ok. I need something to happen in my life besides school because these song lyrics/titles are getting lame. Not that they're lame songs, it's because it's what's playing and if it's playing, it's obviously a good song.

And yes. School started. You must be wondering how such a deep, thoughtful, and mature mind could still be in school, but believe it. I'm a junior in high school. Not shocked? FINE! I wouldn't be shocked either.

Anyway. This year should be a breeze. I think that english and spanish should be hardest, and there's no regents for spanish. Accounting is repetative, or so I'm told, so after a while I should get it enough. Music theory... I'm just hoping I have enough knowledge for that or college might be a challenge. Mrs. OJ is kinda scarey though... but Jess will help me survive that.

I'm talking to tom right now. I only have 5 minutes left online. FUCKING SCHOOL. ehem. My brother needs to cut it out with this overprotective shit. My mom too.

Ok then. Bye.

Whoa, I'll never give in

Another song lyric. Yes, I'm a loser. No need to remind me.Ok, just to let you know, this WILL be a pissy, whiney, and probably lame rant. Give me a break here.

Ok, this whole "Matt" thing is getting annoying. He's milking this, and wants me to do everything for him. The docter said he should be doing things on his own and he's turning into a lazy fuck. Not only that, but he's getting me in trouble because I won't do something for him and he gets pissy and my mom gets mad. Grr. On top of that, we're being sucked dry financially because of these hospital bills, and now there's gas money three times a week for physical therapy and the fact that Dad isn't helping at all, so Mom's yelling at everyone about that. She seems to be forgetting that SHE'S NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH PROBLEMS. Yeah, I know my mere "teenage angst" caused problems aren't as life-conflicting, but aren't I allowed to be an emotional wreck sometimes too? I suppose not. As she said earlier, I live in the "Official Republic of Leigh" and I asked her if I could be an anarchist... no. can i plan a coo? no. what about a revolution?... no. Well this sucks. But that's life. AND IT SUCKS.

On a brighter note, I got my laptop back today. And Echo, which is now on page 126. Pretty impressive, huh? And Kiera and Alex killed a deer 0.0. yep. i gave you a sneak peak. I'll have to print soon, but my mom won't like that idea. TODD FORBID! more money. Fuck off life, let me be myself for a while. Or not.

Bye.
Courtney

And Let Your Sun Shine

That was a lyric. I'm totally out of really good titles. Maybe not, but I've been busy writing 17 PAGES WITHING 2 DAYS so my creativity has been spent elsewhere.

I'm really pissed off right now. I'm on this website looking up lyrics and putting them on my iPod so that Kyle can be like WTF! on the bus thursday, and this site SUCKS. They skip a lot of crap and... they do the whole "Chorus" thing instead of writing it again. Grr. For Example:
Alright!Break me down, you got a lovely face, we're going to your place, now you got to freak me outScream so loud, getting fucking laid you want me to stay but I got to make my wayHey! You're a crazy bitch but you fuck so good I'm on top of itWhen I dream I'm doing you all night scratches all down my back to keep me right onTake it off, the paper is your game jump in bed with fame another one night paid in fullYou're so fine, It won't be a loss cashing in the rocks just to get you face to face
[Chorus:]Get the video, fuck you so good
[Chorus]
Baby girl you want it hard to be a star you'll have to go downTake it off no need to talk your crazy but I like the way you fuck meAlright!Break me down, you got a lovely face, we're going to your place, now you got to freak me outScream so loud, getting fucking laid you want me to stay but I got to make my wayHey! You're a crazy bitch but you fuck so good I'm on top of itWhen I dream I'm doing you all night scratches all down my back to keep me right onTake it off, the paper is your game jump in bed with fame another one night paid in fullYou're so fine, It won't be a loss cashing in the rocks just to get you face to face
[Chorus:]Get the video, fuck you so good
[Chorus]
Baby girl you want it hard to be a star you'll have to go downTake it off no need to talk your crazy but I like the way you fuck me''

WTF! You know? Anyway... That's it I think. Is the font size different than originally? I don't know how to match it. Oh well. Don't let your OCD kill you.

Nope. Not done yet. I'd though I'd mention that I've been getting death threats from Mike. He's going to tickle me to death. So if I die Thursday, you know who it was. Ta Dah!

Bye.
Courtney

Ugh

I did not want to post this, just because I feel lazy and unambitious right now. Well, that's not entirely true, but my ambition has been spent writing like freakin, 7 pages. and yes, I did say 7! I'm still writing too, almost 8 pages. I just don't have anything better to do online right now. I'm only staying on for aim, and no one is talking to me anyway. I betcha Tom is playing video games. So, let's find something irrelevant and random to talk about.

Ok... I have it. My dream! I don't even remember it really. Just that there was this monster, and if I went up this hill it would chase me down. I was like it's slave (ehem matt) and I had to take care of it's kids. But, if I gave it these baby venus fly traps it would get pissed at me and try to kill me, which makes me think this monster was a venus fly trap. I do remember a lot of green and red. Then the playground had a whole other side that was a water park, and I was all "WTF? When did we get a water park?" but I went there and the monster was there and there was a pool and it was deep at one end. Uh, that's it. WAIT! There was something about me stealing a little girl's bike I think... Something about bikes...

Anyway, Matt gets his staples out tomorrow, so I'm gonna go stay up all night until I get to write Jake and Leanne's first kiss! Aww.

Btw, I've been thinking about changing Leanne's name because it doesn't really suit her... But I can't think of something that does. It fit for the original version of the story, but it's all changed now and... Yay! I remembered that I wanted to check Babynames.com for the meaning of Leanne. Thank you!

Funny story, my mom walked into the living room one day and was like "Why the hell are you on babynames.com?" Yeah, thought I'd mention that. Byebye

Courtney

Whew!

Damn! I haven't posted in a few days because I've been getting home at around 1:30 for two days now. Just to let you all know, I am no longer an Atheist. I am a Toddist, you know, as in Josh Todd? BECAUSE HE IS FUCKING GOD!
*ehem* Yes. At Cruefest, he took off his shirt! And I was like OMFG! Of course, Cruefest consisted of more than Buckcherry, but I saw my God. None of you Catholics can say that, can you. Hmph.
Ok, I'm not trying to shove my religion down your throats, or dissing yours if that is it, but what can I say. I'm proud of my newly founded religion. Don't mess.
Anyway, I am officially now a second hand stoner. There were so many people smoking around us, that I was like "Man!"Jon had his neck like a freakin girrafe trying to get high lol. Crazy Bitch ended up being a 12 minute song because he told us what a crazy bitch was. For example, and I quote to the best of my memory: "When you're tapping it from behind, and she reaches back under you and TICKLES YOUR BALLS!" haha, now I keep saying "Tickly balls" to my aunt. I haven't gotten slapped yet!
Oh, and guess how awesome of a sister I am. I taped Tommy Lee's (also very hot, but not quite as godly as Josh) Titty Cam for Matt. I was a little mortified, but I'm just that great. I know.

Ok, now on to Journey. I was a little wiped out from Cruefest, but I was with a bunch of drunk adults so it was quite entertaining lol. I didn't know any of Hart or Cheap Trick, but TODD did the new Journey guy sound just like the old one. And he dance's funny lol. We all hung out in the parking lot, but it was cold so me and Jon (my cousin by the way) just huddled up agains the car for warmth.
Oh, did I tell you there weren't any camera's allowed? No? Well there weren't and it pissed me off. I would of gotten some great shots but NOOOOO. Well, I'm sure the Other Courtney want's to read about my misadventures before telling me about her heart to heart with my brother. Hmm... o_O

[Insert Creatively Genious Title Here]

That was one kick ass title, wasn't it? It was. Don't answer. That was rhetorical. Yeah.

Uh, anyway. Whats with you people (and yes I know that's basically just the OTHER Courtney) and not leaving comments? If I have a strange day or an awesome blog title, TELL ME! Haha, ok. I guess I can't force you to care *wipes tear* about what I FEEL IS IMPORTANT! Probably not... WELL I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU EITHER! Ok, I do. I'M SORRY! (that I'm addicted to caps lock *achoo*)

Um... On the other hand, my day was relatively less boring. I got some responces from strangers who want to help me with my friend issue. And... OH! I slept until 12:45, which was strange because I went to bed relatively early, I think... 2ish? I could of sworn it was earlier, but I remember Home Movies being on tv and turning off so I didn't ruin the show, which has happened before, but McGirk was on stage so it was last night. My theory is that I was having a strange, yet cool dream that I didn't want to interupt. Here's what I remember, which isn't much because my memory leaked from the WOUND OF YOUR NOT CARINGNESS!: *ehem*

Ok, I think I was a vampire... but I do remember missing my bus stop and seeing Gregory get on the bus... He was so cute! His first day of school! Oh! I'm getting distracted. Um, yeah. And I only remember getting in the sun and burning up... Ok, I guess that wasn't much of a description, but it leads me onto another subject.

I just finished the 3rd Vampire Diaries book. And I don't want to read the fourth now. I didn't like the ending and I'm not going to spoil it, but I don't see how the story can go on! You know? But my anger at the ending made me want to write, so I pumped out another few pages to Leanne. Not much, but I really want to work on Echo right now, and I'm not very inspired on my other stories, although Leanne is going well. Well, I suppose I'll read the fourth book, just to see what happened, but I am NOT happy.

See ya later.
Comment before I forget my other dreams.

Courtney

Snap, Crackle, Pop

Did the song just pop into your head? Haha, pop! I didn't even mean to do that lol. Anyway, today was pretty lame. However, I did get addicted to "COD" or Call of Duty 4. See? I even use the lingo. Uh, and in my addictiveness, I got to shoot my cousin in the face with a shotgun. "Violence is not the answer." F YOU. You know what? If violence wasn't the answer, why do they teach us in school that the whole world solves all of it's problems with WAR????? Yeah, good point huh. Society Sucks. That's my Go-To message of the day, go shoot people in the face on videogames. It makes you feel good.

Oh yeah, I totally neglected to mention last night... Sorry Jess, I'm watching TV and getting distracted lol. Jess was at my house and she got a taste of my family and all of it's... wonderful?... strangeness. Now you know where I get it from. We played COD (not her thing lol) and I got very hyper and determined that I need to buy a top hat so I can look like Slash. Muahaha. Ok, that's it for now. Bye!

Courtney

*grumble grumble*

Ok, I have a friend I love very much (as a friend) but I don't know what to do. She's kind of... I'm not gonna say, but I don't know how to tell her without her getting upset or offended. I've mentioned it jokingly but... I just don't want her to get hurt, and I think that this thing might do it. Now I'm caught up in it, and I don't want to be because I have to lie and I don't like doing that. Then again, I want to help said friend, but I don't think it's a good thing to be helping her with. *Sigh* So I blog lol.

Anyway, I'm writing on Leanne again, and it's been a while since I've worked on it. I lost it once, but it kind of worked out better because I started it over and am using a more personal approach, not like the situations, but before I had the characters in a setting I knew nothing about. Makes writing pretty damn hard lol.

Ok, that's about it. My cousin is here playing xbox with matt so there's not much else for me to say. Although I did get a bit uncomfortable helping matt with something. Aye...

Goodnight

Bliggedy Bloggins

That was my Mrs. Terbush impression, but I wrote Bliggedy Bloggins instead of Flippety Floppins. Look at that word play! Yeah, be impressed.

Anyway:

I went school shopping with my dad today, and we got along suprisingly well. Normally we don't talk as much, but we did today and I tried Ahi Tuna. Fancy sounding, huh. Yeah, I know, I'm that cool.

Not only did I buy school supplies, I bought $75 worth of CDs. I got five, you want to know which ones? Sure you do.
1) Buckcherry-15. I went to look for The Maine first, but I was a little blind so I missed that round one.
2) Buckcherry-Buckcherry. That was right behind the first one. I got all excited because both were uncensored. I mean really, is there any point listening to it without the curses and sexual inuendos?
3)Maroon 5-It Won't Be Soon Before Long. This was next I believe. I was proud of myself because after the concert at Bethel, I said to myself "That was so amazing, I don't even feel like ripping them off with Limewire. They deserve the money" and I did as I promised.
4)Rent-Original Soundtrack. This was an impulse. My dad was looking at Sirius radio and XM and crap and I had an epiphany.
5)The Maine-Can't Stop, Won't Stop. This was my original goal, but I didn't see it the first time. Whoops, but I saw it was cheap from an add online and since I just saw them thursday, I'd buy the CD. It was an awesome show, and the lead singer is hot ;-)

I suppose that's all that I have to say today...

OH! Wait! Buy the Wii game, Cooking Mama. It's fun.

BYE!
Courtney

Intro Entry

Ok, well, I'm to lazy to write about me (which is saying something as we read on) so I'm just gonna start from my last blog on a different site WHICH DIDN'T POST. *ehem* I'm ok.


Anyway… Matt (my brother) is home… from what you ask? (or not…) The hospital. At my family reunion, we were riding the four wheelers in the horse pasture. Matt taught me so we went around the trail once and I decided I wanted to go back to the gate at the bottom of the hill. I heard him say “ok, lets fly down then” so I was looking at the gas thingy (that makes you go lol) and I got to the bottom of the hill and didn’t see him. This was strange cuz there’s really no where to go but to the gate so I was a bit miffed. Then I saw my Aunt Paige running at me shouting “what the fuck! Why are you leaving him there!” and I was like “where? What?” and my cousin Corey said “We came to get you” and I was like “WHY!” and it turns out that Matt had crashed into a tree.

All in all, he’s ok now. He snapped his femur into two and has a metal rod in his leg. No sports for him, and he can’t go to Cruefest. He was in the hospital for four days and is now sleeping in my mom’s bed.

Why the emo mood then? I feel like a selfish bitch. I think I’m a bit jealous about all the attention he’s getting, but not because I want to be waited on and moved when I need to and stuff, but my mom was talking about why she was crying while my brother was just sitting there, and how when someone’s child gets hurt, how hard it is and I’m thinking “what about me? I’ve been asking for a freaking DOCTERS VISIT for what, fifteen months now? I’m not asking to be rushed off to the emergency room, and I know perfectly well that Matt needed to go to a hospital immediately (his leg was HUGE!) but I’ve been asking for a long time to. Therefore, I feel like my jealousy is at least a tiny bit plausible, but when I think about it I feel selfish. He didn’t ask for this, and he’s in a lot of pain now and needs help with the simplest thing. But don’t I deserve to not be hurt too?

*sigh* anyway, that’s why I’m all emo today. I’m selfish because I don’t want to be in pain either. Is that so wrong? Anyway, I’ll try to start writing more often again. G’night!

Courtney