Epiphany!

Well first news first. I am awesome. I've been working on another vampire book and today during accounting, instead of doing my test, I thought up a title. Ready for this?

Wherefore out thou fangs


*squeal* Isn't it genious? Well it is because the story is like a modern twist on Romeo and Juliet but better and with vampires. Ok now I totally forgot what my other news was... fuck.

Anyway, prom was amazing. The location could of used work but it was with my friends and James so I'm not complaining. Then we went to Jess' and stayed up ALL night. No lie. Then walked three miles to Nina's.



OH! My other news! I wrote a poem today that I'll share here.

I saw it. Felt it.
I need it, yet loath it.
Everything I thought I got rid of it

I ended up back where I started.
It blinked and blinked and blinked.

And blinked.
I felt it blinking... pulsing.
Pulsing through me, fueling me.
My anger, my hatred.
My frustration.

Groaning, moaning, slamming things.
Pens flying, papers crumpling.
And that damn cursor.
That damn blinking cursor.
I hate writers block.

Ok. Oh, and this is a long post but maybe Courtney could help me with an idea: I want to start some sort of creative literary program at school. Like the Amphibion but monthly. Or like a writers club, where people can bring their work and we can critique eachother. I just don't know how to go about this.

Ok, that's it for now.

You're happy happy friend,
Courtney

*SQUEAL*

OK! GUESS WHAT!!! I MAY HAVE FOUND A COLLEGE I MAY WANT TO GO TO!!!!!!

ADELPHI!!!!

It's in Long Island (2.5 hours away from Delhi hehe) which is near the city which is AWESOME. And it's private so I'll actually learn. There's a writing program. It's affordable and there's hope of me getting in (66% acceptance rate) and and and and! YAY! I'm so glad there's potential.

Ok, that's it for now. Prom info later.

Your squealing friend (hope it's not swine flu)
Courtney

Quickly!

I have to try to rush this one because I have to go to school but I had a weird dream I want to share.

Ok, um... first I was battling this chick and I shot her with a bow and I got a ton of medalions or something. Then I went to Mitchell Davis' house (livelavalive) for some reason and his mom was really weird and I asked him to help me fix my camera and teach me to edit videos. Then we were putting food stamps on our forehead and they left weird marks. That's about all I can remember lol but it was def. weird.

You're student friend,
Courtney

Shot Down Shot Down, It's Just Such a Shame

AHHHHH! SONG TITLE! Haha, just when you thought I got over it. But it is relative.

So my after-prom plans were just murdered. We were all gonna go to Jess' and have a huge bonfire then maybe sleep in the camper (maybe). Mind you, I had no intentions of doing..... yeah.... but I was looking forward to sleeping next to James sooooooo much! You all have no idea. I think it's for two reasons:
A) He's so warm and soft and I would just love to be in his arms all night
B) I want to wake up next to him.

That must be the ultimate feeling, waking up next to the one you love. It's like your dream just keeps going on!

BUT NO!

His mom said no.

So now I'm sad.

And hitting the Enter key too much.

DEAL!

AND USING ALL CAPS!

Ok... enough of that for now. No more "entering" until it's "signing off". Um, as honestly depressed as I am that my plans and dreams and hopes and.... anyway.... were shattered, I still can't wait till Saturday and James is making me feel better (I'm actually smiling!) So yeah.... I'm gonna continue with my short-lived happiness for the night. Goodnight All!

You're STABBING STUFF FRIEND,
Courtney.

P.S. I guess I lied about the whole no more enters, but instead of stabbing I'd like to rebuke my statement and make it shooting. My dad let us shoot his pistol today and it was AWESOME!

Post Seventy!

Ok, well I just woke up. Actually I've been awake for a few minutes but I was trying to get back to bed until James signed on, when I decided to get up. Which was pointless because the conversation isn't really getting anywhere because he's cleaning.

Anyway, I'm going to try to remember my weird dream. Uh, there was a stage and me, plus five other people were there. I hated one of them and we were always doing weird things for the audience. When we were running out of ideas I saw a box of vegatables and decided we should have a mock sword fight (the carrots were a hint). But when I got to the box all the good veggies were gone so Bekah and I split up her shoes and used that until I found a ruler.... then I was on a beach and my grandma was trying to be my friend but in the end she ended up sniping me.

Ok lol, I'll talk about Cooperstown later because I didn't have the energy for it last night... or now.

Your needing to pee friend,
Courtney

I'm trying to make a mobile post but I think I'll keep it short.

So I'm in the car and on my way for this thing for my dad'

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*Groan*

Ok, I have no idea why but I feel shitty. Not like sick (although that's been on and off) but just shitty. I feel very melancholy and kinda worthless. There's no reason for it but I do... Maybe because this "family" outing is probably gonna suck tomorrow. I'm going to Cooperstown and then to Howes Cavern. I just hate how I don't fit in anywhere (except I fit perfectly with James haha. Another story for another time).

In other news, I helped Jess sell t-shirts at this Uncle Rock thing. Uncle Rock is really Robert Warren, and he's a pretty cool dude. We all ate dinner backstage and we were all talking. I bragged a little about finishing my book already lol but I had too. I didn't really help out with the actual selling of the t-shirts because my dad doesn't like to wait so... yeah...

I don't feel much like doing this.... Adios,

You're doodled on friend,
Courtney

*Sad Face*

Ok, I really suck at comforting people. Courtney, here's a public (i almost wrote pubic haha), world-wide HUG for you. This lady at school died (I don't know who she is and I feel like a giant douche) and a lot of people are upset about it. Ugh, why must I be so socially awkward? Wow. And I was just randomly thinking of why James wasn't on (haha, he signed in as I typed this) and suddenly wondered what would happen if he died. OMT I'M FREAKIN SCARED NOW! I mean, he's obviously not dead because I'm talking to him now but now I'm all shaken up inside. What would I do? I bet it'd be a Kiera moment.... I'd freak out and someone would have to hit me in the head with a frying pan to calm me down. But who would comfort me? Kiera had Alex.... what would she do if he died? I'd be missing my other half..... *cries on inside* I wouldn't know what to do... Todd.... I should stop thinking about this.

On to spanish class today. We had this REALLY bitchy sub today and god... I wanted to stab her in the eye with a pen. First she yelled at me and James for sharing a desk, then she moved him to the front of the class, then she told me that spanish was more important than my career!!! WTF!? So me and James were singing La Vie Boheme silently and he got in trouble. Last time I checked, teachers didn't have the right to tell you where you can or cannot look... Arg.

Well I'm done for now. I gave myself a lot to think about... and now I'm gonna dream about him dying or something and I DON'T EVEN WANT TO IMAGINE IT.

So here's another big hug for Courtney.

You're stupid, stupid, friend,
Courtney

Nani?

Although the night is still young and many things can happen, I'm bored so I figured I'd blog.

Right now my house is ridiculously hot. I'm wearing a really short sun dress and if you don't mind me saying, I love my legs (and I even shaved this morning XD). Prom is in a week (the 25th) and things are finally starting to fall into place. I have a dress, shoes that don't match (lets hope it's true "no one is gonna look at your shoes") a ride, a date, Jess is gonna help with makeup and stuff.... I'm considerably less stressed out then like, two days ago. We just have to figure out what we're doing afterwards...

Ok, well that's all I can think up for now....... But I have this awesome song stuck in my head so I figured I'd try to post it.... or not. I was kinda hoping there'd be a youtube thing... so i'll just give a link:

AwesomeSong

Vuah Lah!!!!!!

You're anime obsessed friend,
Courtney.

P.S. Nani means "what" in japanese.
P.S.S. I just remembered spanish class but am too lazy to write now. Another post to come shortly.

Feeling Ponderous

Actually, I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling. I'm not particularly upset.... well I am but it's a second hand feeling. I'm a bit tired but that's normal. Happy? Not quite. I get to talk to James but I feel kind of helpless.

Helpless.

There we go! Now, mind you, I'm not feeling all to emo and melancholy, but I'm definitely hating the fact that I don't know what to do to comfort people. My advice is best not taken and it's hard for me to help people. In fact, I usually end up making it worse by trying to make a retarded joke that ends up hurting someone. Hence, I usually just shut up and listen. I don't want to come across as ignoring someone, or mocking them, I'm just a little bit socially awkward in these situations. For example, I've been to one funeral in my memorable lifetime. I was there to support a friend but I ended up surrounded by a bunch of strangers.

Ok, I lied. I guess I'm a little emo too, but that just came. James left and I probably didn't do much supportive talking. Ugh I suck lol. *sigh*

Ok, well I think I'll go dwell... maybe think of something nice to do (besides drawing stupid smiley faces on cookies. Wow I suck =\) I'll go to sleep I suppose. Goodnight.


You're woeful friend,
Courtney

What's with the dreams?

Ok, so last night I dreamt about.... I don't quite remember... I was in my dad's basement and someone was coming down so I hid in a closet (even though there isn't one)... Then I ran away and was flying over the woods and stuff. And then I was at school at night and we were trying to get it so we could have lunch outside... and I entered a dance competition and did good (that would never happen)... that's all I remember

You're weird friend,
Courtney

Hey everyone! I have another weird dream to share with you!

Ok.... lets see what I can remember from this. It started with going to camp. I looked at my shirt and saw it was yellow and that I was a counselor. I asked Matt what to do and he said I had to sign in. So I followed to his sheet and for some reason had the hardest time trying to write the date, and my name. Then I looked around for my group and noticed that no one was holding my name up so I had to go up to Junior camp and it pissed me off. Then I was at school talking about my desperate need for a summer job and two people from camp (elana and amanda) were there telling me it was too late to apply there. Then I was in music theory for some reason and kicking ass at it and I bought candy corn that turned into M&Ms that i just dumped in my purse to eat later. Then I went to drivers ed and we were riding Elephants and we got lost and were late for our next class.... Then Santa was my father but he was a grumpy old bastard and was building us a fortress that had this really cool rising thing and I had to speak in assembly but the dryer beeped and scared me so I took this button and started to beep out a christmas song and everyone in the audiance had bells and did it too. Then I asked if anyone had it on camera and gave this girl my email address... that's all I can remember but it's hilarious!

Before I depart, I would like to tell everyone of me and Courtney's youtube channel. I write poems and she turnes them into videos. check it out: youtube.com/courtneysquared9192

Your strange dreaming friend,
Courtney

More Updates

Wow. I just was reading through and realized that there are things you may (although probably aren't) curious about.
1) Jamaica sucked. Our plane had two flat tires so we had to wait until the next day to leave. Then on the first day there I got so sunburned I couldn't move (quite literally) so instead of going on canopy top excursions and long scenic hikes, I stayed in bed texting... But there was this really hot guy (sorry James, but haha.... *swoon*) that I sorta stalked lol and I took a picture of him (which I'll post you lucky ladies). So basically, in short, the only thing I got from this vacation was trouble, knick knacks (yay!), a very nasty sunburn, and a $600 cell bill... whoopsie.

"Ab Boy"

I only burned the front half of my body. Yay.

2) I finished writing that short story. It was amazing. I gave it to Mrs. Elberth about a month before it had to be submited and HA she didn't submit it, let alone read it! So of course, I was pissed and I didn't say anything but I worked really hard on it and it could of gotten me some early recognition or maybe a chance of getting into Susuqehanna if I wanted to. UGH!
3) This is a rather important fact for you guys. I have decided to put off publishing Echo because it needs A LOT of work... It's to obvious it was written by a 16 year old and it's just not ready for the world. I want to come out into the world fighting, not with a bad review.... Plus the fact that it's gonna take a lot of money to publish... $2 per double spaced page for professional editing, plus what it costs to print, get a lawer.... it's just too much of a headache.

Um, I suppose that's it. Feel free to remind me if you're curious about anything else and I'll catch you up.

Your sleepy friend,
Courtney

It's Been Awhile

Ok, maybe awhile is an understatement... haha. But I had a really weird dream I want to somehow publicly catalogue before I forgot it.

Ok. So we were at this movie thing and my dad's lint roller rang (i guess it was like a phone?) and Bethany was like "Dad help, please, I don't know what to do!" So I took the lint roller from him and asked what was wrong. She said there was a tornado and then she hung up (the lint roller?) So then I was really upset because I didn't know if my step-sister was dead or not and I was with James. We were playing with my printer and I totally forgot I was supposed to babysit until an hour and a half too late. Then I went to school and somehow Bethany turned into Laura and I went to this super secret teachers meeting with her mom and she told me I had a passing grade. Then Libby (From Sabrina the teenage witch) was in the school and we were sabatoging her laundry but she was coming so I ran to distract her. I shouted "Ew, you smell like updog" and she's like "What's updog?" so I said "Oh not much. How about you?" And everyone started to laugh and she ran away. Then the upstairs hallway turned into the woods where we had to drag her hamper up the hill. Then Laura came back and I hugged her and she apologized for freaking me out so much..... Wait.... I'm having some recolection of the Neversink Resevoir where I made an airbubble and lived down there.... Ok, sorry, back to the story line hahaha. So then I went to a track meet and they were playing speedball and losing so I jumped in and helped and people started bitch talking me so I did it back and then I woke up I think haha. Weird, right?

So yes. In the past few months I've remained strongly with James and we have had some ups and downs but we've made it through. Yesterday I went to his house and that was fun. Yippee! Uh, prom is in a two weeks and I'm very unprepared. My dress is still in alterations and I don't have shoes or anything. We haven't decided on our method of getting there. We're either going with Jess and Gary, or Nicole and Jamie... Two of my hermit crabs died *sad face* and OH! We moved! Not far, just to a different street. I have high speed in my room so maybe I'll pick this back up. And I got in a huge fight with my mom (where I actually fought back *egad!*) and finally got my doctors appointment. I have Bilateral Patellafemoral Syndrom, which means my thigh muscles aren't strong enough and there's too much strain on my knees. I've been prescibed six weeks of physical therapy three times a week. Funny though, my appointment was like, two weeks ago and that still isn't schedualed..... Ha, how unexpected....

Ok, you're pretty much caught up... I think... So I hope to talk to you again soon!

You're very proud friend,
Courtney